Would you change my life if I asked you to,

Ponder this...

I was having a conversion about who we think is gay or bi at work...
Talking saying names...
Then one of my coworkers say "well i guess you can consider me as half. (I had quoted "half" as "bi" )
Him, my cuz and me went back to me place.
Him and i had and long conversion about all kinds of things.
We have the same likes and to me we click...
At work i Check his eye looking at me...

I dont know if to leave it be...

I realy have grown really fond of him...
Hanging with him and talking, its just a nice fun, cute time.

I dont know what to thing...

Help me out.. good or bad...

Love you!

Im starting to get back into thing l/j thing.
All my new journal thoughts are in my tablet under a password. lol

ASTRID! OUT!

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: fairyboy429; August 7th, 17:48

Been awhile...

How is everyone?

I will give a little list of what has gone on.

Work has been so slow. I have not been doing much, Internet, sleep, movies... that's about it.
I have been having roommate issues.
Not cleaning up after herself and her child. Me and my other roommate are cleaning up after her. Its really all ridiculous!
She also knows we cant have dogs in the apartment and that me and my other roomie does not like dogs. She asks if its ok and we say no, next day she gets the dog.
She had her friend over that is a pill head over when she is not even home, and her bf stole my PSP.

ok well enough of that..

I met a guy, and he has a brain! crazy i know! hes a cutie. i like him allot.

ok well maybe more latter...

Bothers me so

: fairyboy429; May 4th, 22:39

I don't understand why I'm feeling like i am.
Its bothering me so much i cant stand it.
I need a distraction, something to get my mind off of it.
i SHOULD BE WRITING THIS IN MY TABLET, and not posting it online.
so that no one knows what is going on with me.
i don't like being like this because I'm never like this so its so much more for me to deal with.
I don't have emotions like this. I'm always so emotionless.
I don't get feelings for people.
I want out!
If it would work out i would give it my all.
Who knows i could be making it out to be something that its not.
do you see were i am my brain is going crazy!

I need to stop talking now...... and thinking. i need to be put away!

Love Astrid!

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: fairyboy429; January 17th, 13:32

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

: fairyboy429; July 16th, 2008

Everything of mine is braking My computer my friends computer that her let me use my mp3 player is not letting me take of put anything on it! i need my music all the music i have is what is on my psp and mp3... and my mp3 is not going to last much longer... and my phone is on its last lag. it terns on and off by itself and takes pix by itself. It feel like all my electronics are ganging up on me they dont like me and im about to become an amish person it would be cheaper

Whitout music i will kill myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it stops my from killing other people and myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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: fairyboy429; July 6th, 2008

HELL YEAHS FOR SKYPE! NOW I CAN TALK TO MY FRIENDS KANA IN JAPAN!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY! AND ITS ALL ON MY PSP!!!! I LOVE THE JAPS THAT MAKE THIS CRAZY TEC SHIT!

while i was gone...

: fairyboy429; July 6th, 2008

It hurts me to say this...

: fairyboy429; July 5th, 2008

MADONNA'S NEW CD! SUCKS ASS! WHAT HAPPENED TO HER DEEP LYRICS! ITS A SAD DAY!

This Hollow World

: fairyboy429; July 3rd, 2008

Woke up this morning radio moaning
thoughts run in circles and set the day
I'm all burnt up
no resurrection
lying here slinging ashes at the sun

Can't find what I once knew
take me
can't find what I once knew
take me

I'm worried my wires are crossed again
so worried I've lost my connection
a desperate need
for more distraction
won't you take me back to oblivion?

This Hollow World
is holding onto me
my Soul my Mind
is held magnetically
electric friction
washes over me
it feels so creepy
it feels so creepy

I'm worried i can't find what's real
can't find any other way to feel
blackbirds sing sad harmonies
lost to the humming wires that feed

Useless agendas make a useless breed
all you can eat in a world of need
a discount price for all your good deeds
tell me isn't that all you need?

Can't find what i once knew
take me
can't find what i once knew
take me

This Hollow World
is holding onto me
my Soul my Mind
is held magnetically
electric friction
washes over me
feels so creepy
feels so creepy

Woke up this evening
television screaming
static burns in my world of dreaming
soothed by the light
I drop my fist
turn my cheek for a cathode ray kiss

Can't find what i once knew
take me
can't find what i once knew
take me

This Hollow World
is holding onto me
my Soul my Mind
is held magnetically
electric friction
washes over me
it feels so creepy
it feels so creepy

This Hollow World

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: fairyboy429; July 3rd, 2008

Each noise has a story to tell.
Each sound has a whisper.
Close your eyes, and listen.
Standing in the pouring rain,
Dressed in metal, chilled and deafened.
Dressed in metal, dressed in rain.
No one can hurt me now.

Nova heart

: fairyboy429; July 3rd, 2008

One of the best artist in our time Johnny hollow lyrics from and 80's band called spoon.

Architects of the world
I walk your streets and
live in your towns
Temporarily
Architects of the world
You've served us well until now
But soon we'll be on our own

And I'll sleep in your
Nova heart
As things come apart
I'll hide in your
Nova heart
At ease with the thought
That this nova won't burn out

Gentlemen of the world
I read your books and
look at your art
Hesitantly
Gentlemen of the world
You want to educate our young
But soon they'll be on their own

And I'll sleep in your
Nova heart
As things come apart
I'll hide in your
Nova heart
At ease with my thoughts

And I'll sleep in your
Nova heart
As things come apart
and I'll rest in your
Nova heart
At ease with the thought
That this nova won't burn out.

dreams of the after math of fire...

: fairyboy429; April 29th, 2008

last night is the 2nd time i dremt of the aftermath of fire at my friends place.. a burned door is all i can recall and some little bloned girl. its strange this is the 2nd dream. oh and i remember strange sworls of smoke. gray sworls almost like a twister... be carful theo!

eminem

: fairyboy429; April 6th, 2008

eminem, truly is an amazing artist, and i use "artist" in full term. his words are deep if you realy listen to them. for a gay man to say that is saying somthing, but im not like all the gays of the world. i kinda dont even like to call myself gay, but for people to understand labels... (so sad) if i would truly label myself. i would not even know were to begain. lol (a book).... (that will come one day!)..... music is my soul. music makes life go on, calm, happy, love, i would have killed myself if music was not. it has always been here and always will be there for me. ok. im done. Strid! out! love! peace! and stop making fucking babies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(no fucking joke!)

so out of it!

: fairyboy429; April 5th, 2008

i cant think! im trying to get ready for work but i have to stand there andt hink heared of what to do next. i dont know what im doing. i have my sleep playlist playing on my computer! love it! chopin piano concerto no.1 is on now! beautiful and calming! what a wonderful way to wake. love! Strid!

3:30am

: fairyboy429; April 5th, 2008

I just got hame from work. we did some frat party thing with drunken children. they all acted like children. but there were some realy cute boys there. but not for me. i saw them more as models and i would have loved to shoot them and some of the girls were beautiful. it was so funny hearing white girls say 'this is my song!' and it was some heard core rapp song that i know had nothing to do with thair lifes! lol and then try to dance like a black girl! hahahaha! i just wanted to slap that shit out of them! well im done... just took a sleeping pill i have work tomar at 3:30pm. im so glad its not in the morn! night! love! Astrid! theo you have my heart!

fuck same sex marriage!

: fairyboy429; April 2nd, 2008

our main goel should be TAKING BACK OUR COUNTRY! we can work on the other shit when we still have a country to call ours!

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